Getting Reacquainted

I have been overwhelmed by everything work, Sigma, and all my classes. 

I love driving north into downtown Atlanta when I can see all the sky scrapers in the horizon before I start driving right through the middle of them. Every time I see those buildings my heart swells with affection and curiosity, and I feel more at home than I've felt anywhere else. Unfortunately, when I saw those buildings on the way back from Christmas break I wanted to turn around and drive the other way--that was disheartening.

Tonight I studied at a coffee shop near downtown Atlanta and got reacquainted with the city during the drive back and forth. It was lovely. And I'm happy, so happy. I felt my heart swell and happiness overcome me by simply being in between the skyscrapers with the rush of driving fast among other fast drivers while listening to loud and fast music. 

Tonight I had time for incredibly selfish thoughts that were not worth having, but it was kinda nice to have time for frivolous thoughts....I kinda miss them... but it is probably a good thing I'm distracted by school and Sigma and by the kid I babysit--Jake.

I keep wishing for the future, to meet a match. I love my guy friends and make efforts to protect them from the harm I  can cause though sometimes I a) still act in way not conducive to that end and b) simply miss my friends. The city always makes me think about this stuff that shouldn't be in my mind at all until someone likes me enough to take me to church and not have sex with me because I'm one of those weird christian girls.